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I've been MIA for a bit from alot of things... my blog, facebook, life in general. So many things to talk about, so many things running through my mind, so here goes. Let me warn you, it is filled with sleep deprivation, anger, hostility, and some tears thrown in the mix.

Ok... let's start out with some fun stuff. The last three weeks were crazy busy. My best friend got married. I dubbed that week Weddingpalooza. It was alot of work being the matron of honor, but in the end it was alot of fun, and I am so honored I was able to stand up there with my best friend since 3rd grade. The following week was spent in Florida... our escape from reality I guess you could say? I don't know how many times I can say thank you to the Wheelers for inviting us to go, and even nicer of them to tell us we didn't have to pay our portion of the beach house. Thank you Uncle Bernard. I hope you are looking down from a better place seeing that you have touched a family that you never even met. It was nice to forget about everyday life for a week. I won't lie though, it sucked coming back down to reality.

So... how are the girls? The wee-1 is 3.5 months, quickly approaching 4. Crazy. She is doing great holding her head up while on her tummy and is starting to reach out to grab things. She's a bit stiff in her muscles (slightly hypertonic I was told by a friend's mother in law that is an occupational therapist) so I've been doing lots of passive range of motion exercises recently. I try and do infant massage after the bath, but she is usually busy screaming. Did I mention the crying hasn't died down yet?

Apparently I have a high needs/high tone baby. She cries. Alot. She is sensitive to sounds, sensitive to alot of things actually. It can make life really hard, but I'm obviously still here still attempting to chug along. Usually my day consists of waking up to her crying, feeding, more crying, more feeding, burping, crying, feeding, some smiling, a bit of tummy time, more crying, nap. Lather. Rinse. Repeat. We do have some special time where she isn't crying, but I've noticed that sadly alot of the day is her crying or me/the hubs rocking/consoling her. She is getting close to laughing it seems like. I was told she was laughing for daddy last week... I have yet to see it. I think she may be teething, there has been lots of drool and I can see two little slits on the bottom gums. It makes me remember how the 3-footer was, and how she teethed incredibly early. The elder cut her first 2 teeth at 5.5 months, then 2 more 2 weeks later, then 2 more a month later. It was crazy! She has yet to roll over, but I'm in no rush for her to do that. The sooner she does that, the sooner she crawls, then walks and gets into everything.

The 3-footer is always cracking me up. A good laugh is nice these days. So much of what she says I think "I need to write that down so I don't forget!" Well, then I forget. So just take my word on it. She's going through alot right now. She understands that we are moving, she understands about daddy losing his job, she understands that she wont be near her what will happen to her toys when we move. On top of all that, she's been a bit under the weather. She has had a nasty cough. It was sounding like croup earlier in the week, it's still there but not as barky. Two days ago she was sounding like she was gasping for air. It scared the crap out of me and I was very tempted to rush her to the hospital, but when you have no health insurance and have just gotten your denial in the mail for medicaid, it makes you try and figure out all you can to make your child ok. Thank God I have a little bit of health care know-how under my belt. Not alot, but enough to get by for now. Heaven forbid if the wee-1 gets sick. I don't know how to handle that. Hopefully medicaid will overturn their decision... I was told it takes 2-3 days to get an answer so I called today only to be told it actually takes 15 days.